And so begins a new round of 12wbt

Well nearly a year on from the start of my journey and I'm back on 12wbt (and back at my blog!) After a really successful first round last year (Round 3, 2012), I half-heartedly participated in Round 4- Christmas and life got in the way and hey I'd lost around 10kg and felt pretty good about myself. I started a new job in January and my priorities slowly changed- I lost motivation at the gym, I tried a new gym and then rejoined my old one. I stopped making time for myself and rather than get up in the morning I opted to stay in bed for that little bit longer. Stress at work reached an all time high and all those good habits I learned and those bad ones I had banished came back with a vengeance- emotional eating featured daily. Rather than try and deal with the reasons that made me feel like I needed chocolate I just ate chocolate. And here I am. Right back where I was 12 months ago I think. Depressed because the dress I bought to wear to a wedding next month no longer fits, as don't any of the nice things I bought myself after I lost weight and toned up. I went full circle and went downhill pretty hard in the last few months- what I had managed to maintain through to about March, blew out as I made so many bad decisions and knew it. I completely sabotaged myself and knew I was doing it.

In a spur of the moment decision last night I joined this round of 12wbt. I am not following the meal plan to a tee- rather counting my calories so as to keep a little bit of the norm in my household. I am doing the learn to run program which I am looking forward to- I think the exercise program was what I missed most, I enjoy mixing things up and hate making decisions myself, so to have something different to follow each week it was a no-brainer to come back :) I can't say I'm not disappointed in myself and how hard I worked and how quickly it all went back to the way it was. But I'm giving it another go and hopefully will relearn all the tools I need to go it on my own eventually. Baby steps.

So here I am, shouting it out to the world. I am going to kick these bad habits. I am going to eat better and exercise. I am going to look after respect myself. I am going to take responsibility for my actions.

The halfway mark

Ok so I'm a rubbish blogger- but at least I came back and didn't just chuck it in :) Plus I'm not even sure anyone is out there!

Back to the blogging though! The end of this week marks the halfway point of my 12WBT journey! It's gone pretty quickly I'll have to say. I'm still enjoying it- I'm switching up the meals a bit more now though and not doing a big cook-up rather doubling dinners to get lunch the next day. Most of them are pretty quick to prepare so doing it at night is fine. Plus I enjoy cooking at night, it's a bit of a release from the day.

On the fitness side of things I've been fairly consistent in following the gym program to a tee. Bar this week where I only got through four workouts- my lapse was a bit of I can't be bothered. But I kicked myself from Thursday and got my butt back to the gym. I also did an outdoor boot camp last weekend that I really enjoyed but find it hard to justify the extra money when I've got my gym membership. I might attend on weeks where I have a red flag event to give an extra boost.

I've had a few blow out moments too this week- having a chicken parma with chips from the pub on Thursday and then on Friday having a sausage sizzle and beer at an after work do. But I figure I need to be realistic and I'm not going to be a saint forever. I think I've been a little disappointed with my progress- I'd hoped it to be more since I'd been following fairly strictly and I had a few moments of well I'm trying hard and it's not working so why can't I have that Parma and chips. Getting to the nitty gritty I'm actually doing really well- I think comparing myself to other people who may have more weight to lose than me is what's getting me down. I'm going to focus more on me! And on that note- check out my awesome SSS workout. I may have been guilted to go a bit harder after I indulged in cake with my coffee but am proud I did an extra 30 mins on the treadmill after the program. Toot toot :)

Hope everyone is smoothly sailing along xo